I'm...tired.

But it was a good weekend. Made another jump rope trip to Canada with two guys on my team...our travel was paid for and on top of that we got a preeettty nice donation. I made $240 to go to Canada, eat ridiculous amounts of banana bread and chocolate zucchini muffins, play Super Mario Bros on the Wii, teach the thing I love most, laugh, and have a good time. I dunno about you, but I'd call that a pretty freaking sweet deal.

Hehehe so on the way I looked again at the directions and said..."OH SHIT." Lo and behold, there was a SECOND ferry that I didn't know we had to take and it was 5 in the freaking morning...by some miraculous stroke of luck, there was a ferry at 5:45 that took us where we needed, and in time to take the second ferry. I've learned my lesson: LOOK FOR RED LETTERS THAT SAY "FERRY" ON GOOGLE MAPS FROM NOW ON.

Telling border patrol agents that we jump rope works like a magic charm. They just...let us go. After opening up cars and searching them, they let us go without so much as opening our passports. We could've smuggled in SO much stuff...not that we were planning on it. One of my teammates suggested panda bears lol....

What's weird is that these guys I travel with make me feel more at home than my own team. Well, we're all on the same team, but they work in double dutch freestyle groups together, so I should feel like the odd one out. And these are the same guys who didn't speak to me for two years after I joined the team...life is strange. I'm SO different from both of them that our friendship basically defies everything that would normally occur in society.

But I've learned to love being an anomaly :) If any of you remember what I wrote a couple of entries back, I love you for that and I hope you know what I mean.

I think part of the reason why I enjoy their company so much is the fact that we just...understand each other. I don't feel obligated to keep up a conversation at all times; we don't need to entertain each other if we don't feel like it. Nobody's feelings get hurt over stupid crap. Nobody's a moody girl. We all value sleep and food. We laugh at each other for being stupid and give each other shit when we mess up. I guess it's a friendship that's a little bit rougher around the edges, but when it comes down to it I feel like there's this sort of unspoken, mutual respect and trust. And on top of that, usually I feel like with people I have to squeeze myself into this suffocating mold to fit in, but I NEVER feel like that around them. They accept my quirks and laugh at me for being weird, and I accept that they are assholes sometimes and laugh at them for trying to be cool. It's a weird, weird thing...

The headphones I'm using right now read: "operates only on aircraft, please do not remove." Clearly the industry lies, and I am a thief.

Ahhhh California in two days!!! I'm ready for warm weather and wild times. Muffy over and out!

PS. Clash of the Titans looks SO SICK

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So, my peeps Saltare went home tonight on America's Best Dance Crew...it was a good run. Reading what some people wrote on the crew's wall is incredible. There were people who cried when they left, people who aren't even connected to the jump rope community...you guys might call it crazy, but I call it crazy awesome. I wish you knew what it felt like to be in my shoes. As jump ropers we've worked for so many years working, travelling, competing, and perfecting a sport without anybody noticing. All of our toils were basically invisible. And to see that work finally come onto the national stage, and to see people get emotionally attached to that....wow. Just, wow.

And I'll admit, I lost some enthusiasm along the way. Their performances got less and less exciting as the weeks went by, they had their slip ups, and I let my support waver. But that was fucking stupid....I let all the haters get to me.

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I had a huge flame post...but I've decided that it was a little bit excessive. Anger is a stupid, fleeting emotion and a huge waste of time.

--EDIT---
So I've cooled my head and sent this feller [source of anger] a nice message on the Facebook. MUCH more diplomatic. You should've read my original post hehe...not the best idea to send.

The farewell performance...

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I finished all of the available FMA episodes.

BUT this is exciting! First of all, never before have I had such easy access to a complete library of HD episodes! And second, I've never been able to follow a series as it airs....so now there will be new excitement every week yesssss! Instead of me just flying through the whole damn series in a matter of days mehehe.

I just hope this hasn't been at much cost to my education...ALTHOUGH (and you'll all be so proud of me) I did study comp sci for 7 hours today ! *accepts cheers and rounds of applause* And since there's no more FMA to distract me, I shall add an additional 12 hours to that count tomorrow.

I've realized that life really never stops. Even though I'll be done with winter quarter Thursday, there's still so much to be done. Booking ferry tickets, scholarship apps, departmental apps, searching for another class...*sigh* But I'm ok with it. I just want some rest!! Spring break will be none of that...I leave Friday for Canada, get back Sunday, practice Monday and Tuesday, and then WOOOOO trip to Californiiaaaa baby it's gonna be sweet! Sweet, but exhausting! It's ok, though, because (and I quote again) as Aretha Franklin once said, "I will survive, bitches."

Jump rope has been amazing lately. I've been working HARD on my individual freestyle, and I can feel myself getting stronger. It's so gratifying to know that giving it my all is paying off. And we've been running through our pairs double dutch freestyle almost the whole way through...and even though I have almost dropped my partner on her head, we've persevered (and I say ALMOST because I have never dropped anybody, ever ). I feel like something good is going to happen this year. I don't care if we win, but I want to NAIL a routine. No, not even nail...freaking HARPOON lol.

I'll admit, my peeps Saltare have been letting it slip lately. Everytime I see them try to dance I cringe a little (ok, it's a very visible cringe), but I gotta keep rooting for the home team. I gotta feeling that this Thursday is gonna be tiiiiiight though. Watch and vote!!

Man, what is with me and all these random "feelings" lately.

Anyways, I haz ramblez. FFS and it's 4:30am...WHY. I told myself I wouldn't do this again! I need to update my list of resolutions. Next time, next time.

Muffy over and out!

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• Turns out I am NOT actually lactose intolerant...I don't know where all the stomach troubles came from.
• Where are the female movie directors
• I'M OLD GREGG
• There is only a certain amount of matter in the known universe. If you eat something, your body takes that matter, restructure it, and spit out the rest. We are all born from the recycled matter of whatever came before us, it's the conservation of mass. But what's something that can be pulled out of thin air, made from nothing at all? ....an idea. If you want to find infinity, that's where you should look
• Elementary school: intro to problems. Junior high: intro to puberty. High school: intro to society. College: intro to self.
• During a layover in Denver, I saw a family reunited after the dad returned from Iraq. Wow

I had more things jotted down but I can't find them at the moment.
Warning: Brace yourself for nerd moment
I discovered there was another "season" of Fullmetal Alchemist and it has DESTROYED my life these past two days. I literally have done nothing but watch it for about 14 hours...and it feels so good . BUT now I have to get back to studying for finals and I can't bear to leave those last 10 episodes unfinished *cries*. Oh well, as Aretha Franklin once said, "I Will Survive, Bitches."

Muffy over and out!

EDIT: OH. I remember now...eyebrows! They're fucking weird! Next time you're in front of a mirror, take a good, long look at the randomly placed hair across the center of your face.

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J/k, it's actually my web browser that does all the h4xing.

So I fell ill with some debilitating stomach / overall wellbeing virus the day I wrote my last entry, but I went home, had some good home cooking, and the next day I had miraculously recovered. Weird. 2/3 finals done.

Yeeee new Iron Man trailer....

I wish to go to the gym right now. My head says no but my body says yes....*sigh*. Heaven forbid if I have become lactose intolerant overnight!!!

I'M SICK OF ASIANS. There are SO MANY of them here. They roam in packs, stalk poor white people in the night, and suck the mathematicz right out of them!1!!1 If they actually associated with people of other ethnic groups I wouldn't be so irritated. I just want a little diversity...we've gotta buncha asians, a buncha whites, a handful of Indians, and probably 10 blacks. Oh it's rumored that there's a latino somewhere on campus but I have yet to spot him / her. Freaking irritating.

There was a butt ton of them lurking (and sucking mathematicz) in the Quad today because the trees are in bloom and they know that's where all the white people like to stand around and site-see. That brings me to another point...does everybody have one of those fancy schmancy cameras with lenses the size of my fist? I see them all the time now. I realize that yeah, the pictures do look cooler...but it seems like anybody with enough money can go out, buy a Nikon D40, snap a couple of lucky shots, and call themselves a photographer. I wanted to get into it once until I started seeing how diluted it's become. That and graphic design...the two things I would've liked to do. Go figure!

*sigh* the next 4 days of my life will revolve around studying computer science until the craziness of spring break begins...until next time, homies.

Muffy over and out!

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Oh man.

I haven't been back to my room since last Wednesday....I am BEAT. 4am flight, arrived in Texas that evening and worked on a show for the Dallas Mavericks for 4 hours, woke up at 8 the next morning, did a school show, worked with PE classes for 5 hours, did the Mavs halftime that night, 6 hours of workshop the next day, bowling, sleep, 6 hours of workshop again, got dropped off at the wrong airport, spent the night at the coach's daughter's house, left again at six this morning, stayed at my friend's house, went to practice, and now here I am back in my room after six days of nonstop jump rope.

Loved every minute of it.

So now I'm severely time / date-confused and I have a shitload of work to finish before Friday. But I'm happy. Very tired, but very happy.

Wish me luck for this week...Muffy over and out

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I remember first telling myself when I embarked on this new life journey...the embarking is easy! It's keeping at it that's tough. Duh, I was right all along. I was dumb to think I could ever stay just as happy while I just stagnated and let life slip away. MISSION RESUMING, LADIES AND GENTLEMEN.

Oh, and just so your visit to this entry won't be completely useless....behold!


I can't believe they did it all in one shot. Sheer ridiculousness. But not as sheerly ridiculous as this old ad which you may or may have not seen before...

606 TAKES. Truly ridiculous.

Muffy over and out

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Here's my conclusion about my life.

I'm tall, but I act like a little kid. I'm studying informatics, but I know nothing about computers. I love music, but you couldn't categorize my musical taste if you tried. I jump rope, but how many people know what that means? People jump rope all over the world, but nobody has a style quite like mine. I've decided my college major, but I only picked it because nothing else feels quite right. I'm in college to get success and money, but I don't care about either. I'm supposed to live at school, but I'm always gone. I love being social, but I also love being alone. I'm a guy, but I'm not "one of the guys." I'm accepting of everyone, but apparently that's weird to some people. I'm a spiritual person, but I don't believe in God. I don't believe in God, but that doesn't mean it/he/she/whatever doesn't exist. I love cantaloupe, but it makes me poop a lot.

I can talk and laugh and love, but I don't really belong anywhere.

And I'm not happy about it, but I'm not willing to compromise my uniqueness to fit in either. Yup, one-of-a-kind. Shaun Hamilton once told me:

"And you...you're just an anomaly."

It's stuck with me ever since. And also reminds me of Neo, the sixth anomaly in The Matrix So I think I'll stay that way, and when I find that community or that person with whom I feel I belong, it'll be that much more special. I just have to keep going and keep looking for it. And I'm tired...but if I give up I'm just going to slip back into the same rut I was in before. All of that sad music and day dreaming can feel good...but at the same time it's crippling. No good.

I'm sorry about these entries. They've been so back and forth and always so serious. But I'm at a strange point in my life and so I blog what feels right. Bear with me :)

Muffy over and out

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