Muffy deserves better
Tuesday. 9.6.16 12:11 am
I am talented. I am capable. I am attractive. I am intelligent.
I am all of these things and yet somehow I could go through a day feeling like I wasn't interesting enough, expressive enough, or just generally good enough.
I deserve better.That's been my mantra this whole weekend.
I had a particularly emotional Friday night after running into someone from my past who wants 0 things to do with me. I called my sister and my ex at 3am, woke both of them up, and in talking to them (they were both mumbling in their sleep) I realized that no one should make me feel the way I was feeling. In fact, I meant so much business that I wrote "WOW....I DESERVE BETTER" in sprawling, drunken hand writing across the paper journal that I keep.
I deserve better than to get so worked up over someone who disregarded my friendship. I deserve better than to have a stupid Tinder account, spend too much time figuring out how initiate conversation, and hear nothing back. And, most importantly, I deserve better than to sell myself short.
I'm just done feeling like every awkward moment, missed opportunity, or failed interaction is my fault. I am talented, capable, attractive, and intelligent, and if anybody else wants to see that in me, that's on him or her to figure out.
Do not try to bend the spoon. That's impossible. Instead, try to realize the truth. There is no spoon. Then you will see that it is not the spoon that bends, it is only yourself.
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» LostSoul13 on 2016-09-06 11:30:29
You've got so much going for you, you definitely do deserve better!
» randomjunk on 2016-09-07 05:49:37
I'm kinda going through a similar situation in regards to the self-reassurance of "I deserve better." I'm used to kind of just...settling, and I don't want to. I don't want to compromise myself for anyone.
» inhuman on 2016-10-20 01:59:23
YOU'RE COMPLETELY RIGHT
None of those things are EVER YOUR EFFING FAULT, MUFFY. I hate that you felt that way and I hate that I can understand it. I would wipe that feeling out of this universe if I could. I'm SO proud of you for believing in yourself, knowing your worth, knowing you're amazing, and standing up for yourself. I hope you're doing this right now in 2017! I hope everything is going well for you and getting better everyday!
» Silver-dot- on 2017-02-03 03:10:57
Met my ex on Tinder, things didn't go well, I got massively depressed for a year or so, decided to run away from life as I knew it and I'm still getting some shit from my ex which is entirely fucked up.
I still go back to tinder from time to time and I still just swipe left or right for the fun of it.
I have a circle of friends whom I call whenever I feel emotional like you did and if you ever feel that way and want someone to talk to, feel free to hit me up
» Nuttz on 2017-02-20 12:42:33
eff yeah muffy-sama.
» thaitanic on 2017-10-31 08:13:24
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